shattered memories{amnesia}[chapter 19]

"Ikki leave.'' You told him once more as he stepped inside and shut the door. Ikki turned and looked at you. "Im not going any where until you tell me why you have been advoiding me.'' Ikki waited for youto answer but you didnt makign him sigh. "Thalia im really worried about you as I should be since im your boyfriend so please tell me whats going on.'' Ikki reached his hand out to touch your cheek but you took a step back as you wrapped your arms around your self. "You shouldnt touch me.'' Ikki ignored what you said and went to touch you but you took another step back. "Just stop Ikki if you tocy me you will become tainted just like I am.'' Ikki was suprised you said that. "Why would you say that about your self Thalia?'' "Because its true, im a bad person Ikki, what I did to Shin and Toma was wrong and because of that Toma is now dead, if I had never cheated on them as I was seeing them both then leaving the way I did after Shin broke up with me, Toma never would have walked the path he did which was dark and did what he did, if I had never done any of that he still be alive which is why I said im tainted, im a horrible person and dont deserve to be with a wonderful guy like you Ikki.'' "So thats why you been advoiding me?'' "Yes.'' Ikki shook his head and with out saying a word he grabbed your arm and pulled you into an embrace. "You are not what you say you are Thalia if you were truely a bad person as you think then there would be no way I would have fallen in love with you.'' Ikki lifted your chin so he could look in your eyes. "I love you Thalia and that is all I need to see, nothing else matters.'' Before you could stop him, Ikki kissed you on the lips. You went to shove him away but Ikki pressed you against the wall and pinned your arms against it with his hands as his body was pressed against yours. You felt your heart hammering in your chest with the love you felt for Ikki. "He loves me so much but I dont deserve him.'' You thought. When you felt Ikki lossen his grip on your arms thinking you wouldnt push back you took that chance to shove him away as you ran to your door and opened it as you shouted for security which two of them showed up. "Please escort this man out and make sure he never comes near this room again.'' You said to them. They nodded and grabbed Ikki. Ikki looked at you shocked. You showed a sad look. "Im sorry Ikki but I dont deserve you which is why it must be over between us.'' You smiled a sad smile. "Im sure you will find someone in time who is a better match for you.'' After you said that to Ikki you told the guys to leave with Ikki and as they dragged Ikki down the hall, Ikki kept shouting your name and saying that he wont give up on you that you were the right match for him. Not being to listen to him anymore you opened your door and went back inside. "I did the right thing, hes better off with me.'' You thought. But despite thinking that you could feel your heart shattering to pieces having you slide down to the floor with your back still against the door as you began to cry as you buried your face on top of your arms as they were leaning against your knees.